Drug Wanted

I think it's not a good time to watch On Call 36 Hours

it is making me wanna cry in this lonely night

I just wondering

I have a wonderful day with TK and his gf today whole day

but now sitting on the bed, watching drama, online, passing the night alone

it's remind me again

"I am alone"

I am lack of something/someone

I cannot recall how many nights I have this kind of feeling and feel like wanna cry

seem like the tears wanted to escape from eyes and heart

I think recently have lack of stimulation

and because of

I am seriously missing someone

even though we have msn, phone call or Skype every night

but I am still feel lonely when I cannot hug him, see him, talk to him via face-to-face physically

I am wondering

if there is a disease called lonely

and if so

is that any drug to cure it?

p/s time passed fast, we have been went through approximately 3 years and 9 months which is about 1360 days together... how unbelievable and surprise I am...