Fucking Day Ever

It is a tiring day

went to college and have collected my exam slip from friend

having lunch with Ice and TK at TBR

accidentally made the window glass of car broken with cannot close

sent to repair and also change the central lock and inner lock of car

took the waiting time to Festival more to take some walk

and then bad day began with a sms

made my whole afternoon suck with keep talking phone to settle the problem 

and then went back to prima setapak to move thing to genting court 

and now I am official announced that I am not staying at prima anymore not even my things

but deposit matter made me headache

at the end 

forced to pay rental fee for April by deducted from deposit

and only can take back the rest after found new roommate

I am still RUGI!

2 months notice already given and keep looking for new people from February till now

but no any news after people come and see room

is that I still have to pay April when I am not staying there?

I already rugi when I pay for March as I not even stay there too except my things

(stay at sister's place because near to workplace)

to clarify here

I will no care to pay rental fee for May if still cannot find new people (touch wood)

if you think it is unfair for you and another roommate to share my part until get new people

why not you stand on my point and think

isn't unfair for me to pay money but let you two enjoy the space and I gain nothing?

SCREW you bad day!

my plan of study psycho gone because of this annoying matter!

p/s: or perhaps I should listen to someone that I should just ignore the deposit money and cut all relationship from prima since we are not so poor too?

Study

I have to study hard!

since I knew many of my beloved friends, coursemate and colleague are adding oil for me now

I cannot ruin their expectation

but how about myself?

don't care

I better to be a winner instead of the loser now!

=)

MAD

hmmm

It is already 48th days since he is not around me

and I am passing through all these days as usual

it is an opportunity to let my heart take a rest from love

hopefully the doctor will allow him to back to his daily life from the treatment by next week

=)

well

as stated in previous post

I have back to working life to continuous gain some experiences

and I have found a different of myself between last time and now

I am a little bit more sociable and happy

maybe because I found some colleagues who they are funny and can joking

I am appreciating to meet and knowing them

even though I have lost my "lady" image in front of their funny joke

hahahahahahahaha

 I think I am really MAD recently

XD

This Moment

it is an enjoyable evening which I lied on the bed, listen to songs, online (instead of study for exam)

I like this moment although it bring me lonely feeling

let the whole body include mind relaxing 

it will be more perfect if now is in the afternoon with drinking some tea or coffee

but I am appreciate this as usual

as long as I can escape from all those annoying things such as quarrel with my sister

I love to be alone 

most of the time (perhaps)

Working Life

hmm

just passed a very impatient morning today

waited LRT to Sri Petaling for more than 10 minutes while the other line already passed through 4 trains ++

keep scolding dirty/rude words in heart

and so wish to make a complaint

I think I am a impatient people + like to complaint

=P

hmmm

have been awhile after back to work before going to UK

life is as usual and different

I am still blur blur all the time

I am still always doing wrong thing

but luckily I have a very good colleague willing and patient to teach me

I am so guilty to her 

but this time

I back to workplace with different feeling

I am more comfortable and more sociable a little bit

meet new colleague from other company and have joy around between us

something changed within these few months

and I am so shocked and unbelievable

haih

I now only realized I have been isolated privately during that time

abut perhaps I am a slow thinkers

so I doesn't care about this thing that time

just wondering how come I pass along that three months under this

perhaps my easily forgotten talent have saved me always

=P 

between

I will be on leave for 4 days to prepare my two resit papers next week

with the support of my friends, someone and my colleagues
hopefully this time I will be the winner instead of letting "them" kill me

Good Luck!

p/s: thanks my friends (HL and Dai Lou) who will help me to work part time for my company event! Here I assure, my colleague is very kind! =)

How If I Were A Boy

I hate Da Yi Ma

it's make me uncomfortable whole day

=(

How if I were a boy?

I don't need to be suffer every month

Don't need to see blood!

Don't need to make up!

Don't need to queue up for a long time when going toilet!

and

I will have more freedom!
I can go swim anytime!

I can chase any leng lui as my girl friend!

I can go club drinking anytime!

I can be gay to close to all leng zai hehe!

Yeah!

;D

Drug Wanted

I think it's not a good time to watch On Call 36 Hours

it is making me wanna cry in this lonely night

I just wondering

I have a wonderful day with TK and his gf today whole day

but now sitting on the bed, watching drama, online, passing the night alone

it's remind me again

"I am alone"

I am lack of something/someone

I cannot recall how many nights I have this kind of feeling and feel like wanna cry

seem like the tears wanted to escape from eyes and heart

I think recently have lack of stimulation

and because of

I am seriously missing someone

even though we have msn, phone call or Skype every night

but I am still feel lonely when I cannot hug him, see him, talk to him via face-to-face physically

I am wondering

if there is a disease called lonely

and if so

is that any drug to cure it?

p/s time passed fast, we have been went through approximately 3 years and 9 months which is about 1360 days together... how unbelievable and surprise I am...

I Am A Car License Driver LIAR!

For those my beloved friends who know me well

they sure knew that I am a CAR LICENSE DRIVER LIAR

what is it refer to?

hmm

I have car license and 2 years P license already over long time

I think it should be already 4 years ++ after I get the license

BUT

I do not know how to drive a car

I never drive car

and I never have chances to drive car

more specific to say is 

people (parent and someone) who know me well won't let me to drive car

I think because of my face problem so they blacklisted me

haha

and now

I am taking the opportunities when someone is not around in Malaysia 

and he left his car for me to take care

I am actually attended a few times car driving lesson 

first 2 times are with friends accompany

and now I am driving alone inside the flat area 2 times

it make me so nervous and excited when driving alone

I plan to pass the final test judged by someone when he come back

hopefully I can control his car well

Wira with manual (engine mati easily and hard to restart the enjin)

plus a lot of old car problems

such a huge challenge for me

especially parking lesson

hmm

I told myself

I must learn how to drive car 

and hopefully he node his head to let me fetch him go somewhere 

and also confident with me

=)

p/s: finally someone is back to Malaysia 

       and cannot wait to see him back to KL from his treatment in Penang!

Opps! I Am So Stupid!

I thought something happen between us

but originally is I think too much

his eyes is infected by some kind of eye virus

so his sight vision is very blurred and hard to see thing

he cannot see any written words (msn, email, FB and etc)

I AM SO STUPID

he already told me last day when we chat on msn

it make me so emotional these few days

mood go up and down when expectation come and disappointment come when waiting his reply on msn

and luckily I wait till he on Skype and answer my call

happy and tears come together

hmm

because of his eyes viral infection

he has to pause from his work outstation now

and back to Malaysia by tonight flight from Pakistan to KL to Penang

to go to hospital and see doctor

although outstation money fly away

but health is more important

hopefully all thing go well with his eyes

=)

I hate Tears!

I feel so insecure tonight

three days no news at all

I hate this kind of feeling

not even reply msn when I saw him online

I hate myself to think on negative side 

is that I too sensitive?

or is that this is a bad sign?

or is that his account be hacked by others? left his coco laptop in hotel while going to work?

or is that because of he get into trouble there or accident?

tension and frustrated

I am so tired to wait in front of laptop every midnight when I am so sleepy and have to work next day

because of this

I cannot even concentrate on my work whole day

can't you think for me?

I am so tired in this game and I scare to forced to think on bad side

I swear tonight I would not sleep whole night because I want to wait your answer

could somebody tell me anything go wrong suddenly?

wtf

I hate myself

AGAIN