FAT

 

went to Jusco yesterday and take a weight measure with the machine with RM0.40 only

51.65kg, 159am and IBM 20 (within normal weight range)

went to Giordano to look for some T-shirt 

tried T-shirt in M size but will look fat with my obvious stomach

forced to take L size

tried a jeans and it's so sad that the stomach there iwas so tight and stomach was out 

design is ok ok too

after that 

went to Levi's since I knew it have some out 4 different types of cutting that more suit our ass and thigh

tried jeans too and same problem but not so tight

end up did not buy any jeans due to expensive price and no confidence to keep me fit in the jeans in future

it is so cruel when forced to realize I can not fit in the size of clothes/pants with previous or smaller sizes

and the most cruel things is once again

I force to facing the truth that I have increase 46kg to 51.65 kg now!

I am FAT! Damn it! 

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