Trash Bins

just realized that this blog is my trash bins for releasing emotion/feeling

sorry for my friend to make you worry for me

I wish to share with you what my life is going on

but

I just don't know since when

I have stopped to write about my life

perhaps is because

I have out of inspiration

I am lazy

or

my life is boring and uninterested at all

when I was still young or once a time

I have think to be a novel writers/authors in future

but now

it's still a long way for me

because I still don't know 

who am I

who I want to be

and

who I wish to be

I have no a good personality and style in my writing

p/s: I wish to buy a camera or a phone with good camera quality as I wish to post nice photos to share with you about my life...

I

I am lost at somewhere in my life 

I see darkness in my study, work field, life and future

I am a FAIL person

I am lazy and unmotivated always

I am not a perfect lover

I am not a good daughter

I want freedom

I am stubborn

I feel lonely

I anti social

I am light Mysophobia

I feel insecure

I am negative thought thinker

I want to be loved

sometimes

I doubt at myself that

I should go for psycho counseling

Sorry

it is the 14th day since you are not here...

I know I am kinda missing you right now

am I feel lonely most of the time

I keep watching drama, hang out with friends, busy with assignments

just to pass the day until you are back

sorry that I did not take care well of your car

the most happy time that can cure my loneliness is when I keep touch with you through msn 

and Skype to see your lovely face

but today

I was ended my night with a sad feeling

I am annoying all the time but today I am the most annoying person for you

sorry

good night but I am still loving you

I will solve the thing and keep passing my days as usual

hope you take care at there

Does a Woman Annoying?

Just read the prose novel, 一段爱情， 两个人成长 written by Amy Cheung (张小娴)

and found a few article that have well portrayed what a girl friend normally will be in a relationship

Does a Woman Annoying?

I would say/agree

yes, I am

I agreed  all of the boy friends will definitely also agreed that girl friend was so annoying by keep asking them 

"Am I annoying?" 

because girl friend will not satisfied with any answer the boy friend give

it is a fact in a relationship

because I belong to this kind of girl friends

I also strongly agreed what Amy has wrote at the last sentences in this article 

"Is that woman is so annoying? I only knew that, I would not annoy/bother a guy if I do not love him even though he come and please me."

Random Update

Oh  well

have been a long time did not post anything at here again

sorry

went to Borders and Popular yesterday

and have fun to shop for all books with RM 400 book vouchers

RM200 from mine and other RM200 from someone's friend

end up bought 11 books with these book voucher 

such an enjoyable time to shop for books without spending own money

it will be tough time for me again until middle of next month

as someone just went to Pakistan today to work for one and a half month

hard to think how a boring month will be for me

anyway

I hope these months can be passed by books and my study and work smoothly

UK pre-classes will be began on this coming Thursday

will be meet my beloved friends again and assignments

it's time to be hardworking for the study this time

and to study for my resit paper earlier

hope so

p/s: I wish I can pass my last semester exam when the result come out on Valentine Day!!

=)